Unforgiven

The weekend was spent thinking abt one final quip from the partner chasing the portal project.

"Karipap, I don't want to sound selfish or self centric, but you have to think about this project. You brought it to life when it was dying, and now we're on the brink of winning it, and you want to quit"

The fact that the above person even opened his mouth to utter those words meant it had large doses of selfishness...

I discussed the above with my wife. Of course, me, with my sentimental reasons, felt I needed something to uphold those words said above. My wife was more brutal.

She reminded me of 2 occassions where I got totally screwed by the firm.

The first was when I was asked to go down to Paris to save that sinking ship of a project with my wife expecting. Not cool. Wife damn unhappy. The firm says "good for your career"

The second was that infamous "tap on the shoulder" by the then retired Singapore office partner. My wife had just given birth...
"Karipap, you're going down to Melbourne tomorrow..."
"Ayoo.. I only got 1 pair of underwear..."

The third was when I slogged nearly to death chasing that SGD75M deal (which would have made me partner then) during SARs. I travelled every week, by bus, to Malacca... (because I had to move my family somewhere with me spending full time down in Singapore). I remember, every time I came back, I straight went in, showered for an hour before coming out..

And what have I gotten in return?