Hydrogen

Yesterday, I took a deep breathe and called the CEO of the startup I was supposed to join. Was very worried I'd get a shelling... because honestly, that company has been chasing me for almost a year and this was going to be the 2nd time I was going to say no to them...

The 2nd time? Long story.

I agreed once to join them last year then I was asked to transfer down to China. So I told this startup it won't work and pursued my transfer to Shanghai. It broke down because of the child education compensation which my firm was too stingy to pay, even though it was clearly stated in the Policy 800 that we have.

So, fast forward back to today.. here I go again, turning them down. I do feel sad cause I will definitely kick myself (no, I'm probably not that dextrous) if this company succeeds.

Branching off and talking about something on tangent again... during the dot com days, I was seconded to be a CTO of a startup. We were building this kick ass B2B payment infrastructure that allowed BILLIONS of dollars to be pushed through the internet and then the bubble burst so I was sad that the start up I was involved koyaked. The 2nd start up I was involved was www.finatiq.com. That was at least successful at that time. That was the project lah that the partner promised the client that "we can launch a complete virtual bank in under 100 days". Then on day 40, the partner kicked out the Dallas based project manager because that manager said "it could not be done". So I was brought on to salvage the project for the remainder 60 days.

Then, during the dotcom days, I was also headhunted by www.ewarna.com. That one, I nearly went because it was situated in Malacca, my home town. Don't know for what reason I turned them down at the last minute... and now I find that they are very successful.

So, I do have a passion for start ups, and I feel a little sad I have to turn back this opportunity for something more stable.

So back to the phone call to the CEO. The CEO was very silent on the phone. I sensed shock. But I had to end the conversation fast. Sigh.. there goes another missed opportunity.

I am now sitting at Proton Mutiara waiting for my car to be serviced. There's wireless here... can also do some work...